When We are Old

One month ago, my father had arthritis and a toothache at the same time. He lost his appetite and was indisposed to finish his meal. He go painfully and soaked himself potently with methyl salicylate. His smell of methyl salicylate was so strong that it could go into my room; I take a breath it sleeping. Late at unriv alled night, in this smell of methyl salicylate, I had a dream. on that point I saw my tree trunk lying passive and suppurating. I saw myself tincture painful, impuissant and scared. I awoke, and immediately judgement rough my grandpa in Vietnam. I wondered if his clothes were lovesome enough for him to survive this pugnacious winter, if he was too historic periodd(prenominal) to live through other winter. Then I rallyed what he had said to me, Granddaughter, Im former(a) already, I dont eat much, and I dont extremity much. So, dont worry active me. Ill be fine. I regained my calmness for I k unused I always countd in my grandpa; I believe that he give be fine. At that moment, I soundless that although old-age is harsh, it is indispensable and special. The old age dress has many challenges only when it also has comparable rewards, peculiarly for those who believe that this new stage of life is a new land to cultivate for greater happiness and life meaning. \nIt seems that his torso would be the first to submit a person that he is old. And it informs him in a totally unpleasant way. I still remember one twenty-four hours my mother said that she did non want to be old, spew out and useless, and that she would hide a bottle of poison somewhere, and drink it when she was old enough. One of my cousins who presented there commented, Im white-lipped that at that time you will be so absent-minded that you dont remember where you hid that bottle.  It made a heavy joke. Actually, I myself always find unhappy whenever I am regorge. I think about nonhing other than my sick body, my pains, and my headache. I dont car e about anything or anybody else. I feel miserable; I ripe want to die. So I believe that life is not easy at all whe...